The Weight of Thoughts

April 3, 2015April 2, 2015 / roughwighting / 59 Comments

Some times I can feel my bones straining under the weight of my thoughts. And that’s wrong, all wrong, so I strain more in the down dog position, where my arms and wrists and shoulders take on the weight of my trunk.

My trunk. What a word for my body, which is pack full of multi-grain toast this morning, as well as three cups of hot green tea that have not found a way to warm my too-cold fingers as I type about my bones.

My bones. I imagine my bones are light as a skeleton, while the rest of me – my muscles, my blood, my skin – is too heavy for what lies within.

But the heaviest weight is definitely my thoughts. Continue reading →

Losing Control – X Rated

January 9, 2015January 8, 2015 / roughwighting / 47 Comments

How often do you let go of your emotions?

If you could lighten up a bit, would you let yourself laugh more?

Or cry more?

I used to lose control – emotionally – when I was younger, and thus was embarrassed many times, particularly back when I didn’t have the discipline we “adults” are expected to display.

I cringe when I recall times I’ve “lost it,” so to speak.

Movies are a prime example.

Before I knew myself better, I’d watch movies that destroyed me. I’m reluctant to give an example, but since I’m trying to lose control a bit, here goes… Continue reading →